day 37 - additional stuff

In addition to the last post...

ok, I want to be mature.

Mature people don't refuse to eat just b/c they had a bad day.

Mature people work to handle their emotions.

Mature people don't not do what expensive program staff tell them to do.

Expensive program staff told me to "Get real" with myself a/b my hunger at night.

So I checked in.

My hunger was at about a low 3.

That's too low.

So I ate my snack.

And I enjoyed it.

And, no, it wasn't as big as they would have wanted it.

But it wasn't horribly small either.

I'd say it was a/b 50 - 70% the size they would have wanted.

So I'm not fooling myself - it wasn't enough.

But at least it was something.

And just eating that one thing

Changed my mindset.

Prior to eating it, I was dead set on not eaitng breakfast tomorrow either

And just being really hungry by the time lunch came around

But, eating the snack made me think

that yeah

I can eat breakfast tomorrow

Anyway....

I should stay in the present

Breakfast isn't until tomorrow.

All I did was respond to my hunger cues tonight.

That's all I need to think a/b.

The end.

Smile.

Exhale.

Sleep.

I actually feel better now.