A breakfast story on Day off # 12

something cool happened at breakfast today....About an hour after breakfast, I noticed that I WASN'T future tripping. I WASN'T thinking about the breakfast. What stood out was what I WASN'T doing. Explanation: I noticed that I DID feel food in me, and I ACCEPTED that without even making an effort to accept it. I didn't even notice that I felt the satisfied full feeling until I thought about it. I just, easily, naturally, was okay with this. I didn't have to remind myself to be okay with it; I didn't have to talk myself into being okay with it... I just... was okay with it. Without even trying to be okay with it. I just was! Also, I noticed that I WASN'T thinking "oh no, I won't be hungry for lunch." Actually, I was struck by the fact that I WASN'T thinking about lunch. I knew I'd eat it. But I wasn't even thinking about it. I didn't have to spend time reminding myself that lunch is 3, 4 hours away and I'll be hungry again by then. I didn't have to spend effort pulling myself back into the present. I wasn't even overthinking hunger/fullness levels. I just ate and that's that. I just got dressed and started getting on with my day, pulled my index card for lunch to see what it was, and that's when it struck me: Woah... I totally feel food in me and am okay with that, in fact, it feels good (pause: did I just say it feels good? I did, and I meant it... weird...), and.... woah, I didn't even have a thought about lunch during breakfast or post breakfats..... woah..... I just ate and then moved on without thinking anything..... woah. what? really? so weird. good weird... I just did that without trying to... it was only when I pulled my index card for lunch that I realized that that happened. So, anyways, that was nice. And, by the way, breakfast was a bagel with 1 tbspn low-fat cream cheese (on one half), 1 tbspn PB (on the other half) and half a banana.

ok, this was exciting and I wanted to tell you all!